Sam is a long way away ... and i hate it!

[HooDunnit]

Hi Anne -- RE: "I have realised I am just not ready 'not to be needed' AT ALL !! ..."

I think that you will always be needed by Sam, as his mom. How that will be done may change over time. When I almost died after my second lung operation, the thought that kept me struggling to breathe despite my chest wall paralysis was the thought that my children were young and still needed my help. In fact, I have read that 20% or so of people in their 30s are still living or reliving with their parents -- often for financial reasons. Many will move out and then move back home again.

[AnneM]

Thankyou for this Barry!! ... and actually you are right ... I still "need" my Mum at times !! ...

Mind you I think still having Sam living at home in his 30's might be NOT quite what I had in mind !! ;D ;D ... but I take your point ... financially this can be what happens ... but for Sam's sake I hope that he has his "own place" by then !

Well there I was thinking he was all homesick and instead of coming home a day earlier he has this afternoon asked if he can come home a day LATER !! (i.e. Tuesday!) ... His ticket is valid and he is on school holidays all week so I said yes! ... It sounds like he is enjoying himself anyway! ;D

[mom2tj]

Ben you sound like such a wonderful Dad. you seem to have a great realationship with your kids.

You both are making me feel like I"ll never let DS go ovenight I feel a pain in my chest.....I miss him and he is only upstairs in bed

I to love the smell of my boys I love to lie next to my boys till they go to sleep smelling there hair, they love it too....I miss the smell of DH when he is of to work.... when I was a girl my dad traveled alot and when he was gone I would hide in his closet to get the smell of him!!

[AnneM]

Thankyou EVERYONE for relating to my "missing Sam" feelings over the past 5 days.

I picked him up from our train station late this afternoon (after an 8 hour journey and crossing Londonon the underground) ... and I was sooooo pleased to see him ... I would have given him a HUGE hug except there was a group of girls waiting for a train caling "Sam ... Sam .... HI .... Sam ... " so I figured a hug from his Mum was probably NOT relevant right at that moment!! ;D

I have to confess he did get a bear hug when we were home though and away from his friends !!

[finnmom]

Anne

I´am so happy for you getting your son home safely, great thing Now I think you really should enjoy of this time!

Marja