I'm really doing this? I can't believe it.

[skylarkragtop]

Thanks George. Your post was meaningful.
Sweety, thanks for being a nurse.

This post was from about a year ago. September 1st (a week ago) I started my second year in the nursing program. When I posted this last year, I had not started yet. I'm doing well with it. A couple of B+'s and an A so far. I am now starting pediatrics and psych. Today my instructor assigned me to the ICU. She told me she sees me going into pediatrics. I'd been thinking labor and delivery. We'll see. I am a success story. I can not wait to graduate in May.

My wife keeps using the word "if".... "if you graduate, we'll...."
I keep saying "what do you mean, IF?" She says, "well, you know"

When you have a history of not finishing what you start, spouting off grandiose ideas and farfetched visions, and never follow through, you earn yourself the "if". I'd have thought by now, with the sticktoitiveness I've shown, my 53 credits and 3.88GPA, that I'd have earned the "when" by now. I guess I've gotten to 90% done before, and dropped the ball on a few things.

Not this time. I have no choice. I've told too many people. I've told myself that this is what I have to do. I've told my boy that daddy's gonna be a nurse. He's proud of me. He's 3 and a half, and he's counting on me. I've got nothing that I want to fall back on, nothing I want to go back to doing. I want to be a nurse. I will be a nurse. I am a nurse.

Yesterday at the park a seven year old girl fell off the play structure and split her eyelid open. No park workers were in the maintainence building, but I found their first aid kit and prepped all the gauze with peroxide, handed it off to her mom, and gave her the tape to approximate the wound's edges to minimize the formation of scar tissue... then I find out the mom is a nurse. I told her I'm a nursing student, and she thanked me for keeping my cool and helping her out.

SR

[Linda]

I thing for sure I know about ADHD people....if it is something a person loves to do... THEY WILL SUCCEED!

[Kaiti]

SR, if you have the stomache for it, you have passed me by as land slide

I have come across accidents, and been fine, but to reflect on it and to look at text or to have to think about that kind of bloody stuff, ewwwwww, makes me nausius.

GO FOR IT WITH AGUSTO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are almost there, don't turn back now, and the most reassuring thing from someone is that they were studing whatever the situation was there was a need for at the time.

Pat your self on the back, you WERE at the right place at the right time for a reason

[AnneM]

skylark !! ... This is such positive reading!! ...

I just KNOW you are going to do this right the way through .. you are going to be (in fact already ARE from what I am hearing!) a nurse!! .. Period!! ...

And WHAT a great CAREER that is!! ... and its also just GREAT To see you!! ;

[Kaiti]

DID YOU REALIZE I WAS ALOMOST WORD FOR WORD A YEAR AGO......OH THAT IS TOO FUNNY

SR WE LOVE YA LOTS HERE. TYPE ALL YOU WANT female dog ALL YOU WANT...WE DO IT ALL THE TIME.......
TAKE CARE
KAITI.....OH AND THE ROSYRED45 WAS M EINCASE YOU WERE TRYING TO FIGURE THAT OUT....LOOK I HAVE -2 POSTS, THAT MEANS I CAN POST AGAIN AND AGAIN

SHHHHHHH DON'T LET LINDA FIND OUT. SHE'LL TRY TO SHUT ME UP. HAHAHAHAHAHA

[george3]

Hey SR,

I was just wondering, when you are in an accident situation like the one you described, does it seem like everything goes into slow motion and you focus on the steps to follow and the world dissappears except for what you are doing and how you are doing what you are doing? I took Emergency First Aid at North Texas State in the early seventies and I have used it in many ways since then and it seems like that every time to me.
George

[george3]

Me again SR,

What state do you live in? Just curious, you know how ADHD is, propetual brain function.

George

[Amsmom]

oh SR, i believe in you for sure!!!!

you have accomplished a lot and we are all sooo proud of you. btw, great gpa!!!
that is really great the way you helped that little girl on the playground. even tho that mom is a nurse, she was really lucky you were there!!!

[skylarkragtop]

George,
I'm in NY.
And yes. Mental Tunnel Vision and altered time perception do kick in during times where others might freak. It happens every time I avoid a vehicle accident too. Usually after the situation happens, I think about it, and then I get this intense spasm in my back from the adrenal rush that kicks in when my mind finally processes what happened.

I've written about that before, I think.

SR

[george3]

Skylark,

The reason I asked about the altered time perception is that it happens to me in an emergency. I wasn't sure if it was an ADHD thing or if alot of people have that to happen to them. It's wierd during the time it is going on. It seems like everyone and everything are standing still and you are the only thing that is moving.
Have a good week in NY.

George

[tridlette]

George, I have worked on ambulances for 25+ years, 14 years in the ER and ICU as a respiratory therapist.

I know I have written this before also... they did a study of 1000 paramedics several years ago in New Jersey... over 80% of them tested for ADHD on the Connor scale. It is a perfect job for those of us with ADHD... high adrenaline rush, hyperfocus for a short period of time, and then let it all go!

S/R When I have been in those OMG scary moments, the ones where even I have felt like panicking, I talk to myself... this one key phrase has gotten me through working on fatal accident scenes....

THE SLOWER YOU GO, THE SLOWER YOU THINK, THE MORE YOU WILL GET DONE EFFICIENTLY!

It stops the panic. Think deliberately. I remember one really bad accident many years ago... the victim was my partner's brother, involved in a DUI accident... he was a pedestrian... My partner was a wreck, and I couldn't find the airway kit because I was starting to freak out also. I slowed down, thought "SLOW" said it out loud, and suddenly my brain went into SLOW gear, and I was able to function. Unfortunately, in that case the brother didn't make it, and I had my hands full taking care of my partner on the way home from the hospital...

I even held myself together the day my son was hit by the car, by THINKING SLOW!

[Kaiti]

What's wierd about the thinking slow, especially when I think of EMT'S and such is that it seems that in split second timing, your mind would be racing.

That's just from an outside objective. I don't like blood, but we came across an accident, when I was 7 months prego with Mikey........I understand from that aspect what you are talking about.

And like S/R, I panicked after we left the scene ???Only because it sunk in what happened. The driver was hit on the side and his seat was in the passengers seat.